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Serath
held her breath as she eased open the door to her cell.
The
hinges were old and rusted, and she took care to go
as slowly as she could manage, although the excitement
was singing through her, and it seemed her entire body
was ready to run.
But
no, the door crept open as slowly as a prayer, and to
her credit there was not one squeak from the hinges.
She slipped past the opening and into the narrow hallway,
unlit but for a faraway torch near the end. When she
turned she bumped the edge of the door and it closed
too quickly; a high-pitched creak filled the air.
Serath
stopped, heart racing, listening for movement from any
of the other cells. Nothing. She was fortunate—none
of the other novices stirred.
She
picked up the bundle of cloth that contained her few
possessions—a change of gown, her mother’s brooch, the
food she had managed to steal—and crept down the hallway,
moving swiftly.
The
small windows set into the doors of the other cells
showed only darkness upon darkness. Everyone should
be asleep by now. It was very late, and the nuns and
novices would all be up in a few hours.
Serath
had figured this to be the most ideal time for escape:
the dead of the night, when the torches would be burning
low and even Sister Peninnah, notorious for her light
sleeping, would be drowsy and gone to her dreams.
She
had thought she might have had problems remaining awake
herself. Her days were full of work and meditation,
and the prioress made certain she was never idle. Yet
to her relief Serath had felt nothing like exhaustion
when she finally lay down for the night on her hard
pallet. Even when feigning sleep for the sake of the
final check through the cells, she had felt her senses
sharp and ready, eager to begin her final hour here.
She
was leaving. She was truly doing it. She was leaving
this place, this prison of hers. She was going to use
her voice again and sing to the ocean, sing as much
as she liked, and there would be no one to stop her,
no one to strike her or punish her....
The
end of the world was looming close, but Serath would
beat it. She would find her peace outside of these walls
before it came.
Sister
Peninnah always slept with the door to her cell open,
and the torch was just outside of it. It was her duty
to watch over the novices, to ensure they were where
they were supposed to be when they were supposed to
be there. Serath aligned herself beside the door and
cautiously peered in.
A blur
of a form on the pallet. Steady, even breathing.
Serath
passed the door as lightly and as quickly as she dared,
her cloak flaring behind her.
The
bishop had been correct about the weather—it was unseasonably
warm, and Serath wore the cloak only because the dark
color of it would blend better with the night than the
pale gray of her gown.
Done!
She was out of the dormitory, she was at the long, open
walkway that led from the cells to the main buildings.
The sky above her was vast and remote, studded with
stars and the moon hidden behind a bank of clouds. Only
part of her noticed that the light seemed peculiar,
smeared to the wrong color, but that was nothing to
think about now. The gate was just a short walk away.
Serath
did not walk. She ran, holding her cloak and her belongings
as best as she could, jumping over the uneven stones
of the path until she came the great gate itself, tall
iron and three heavy locks.
Tucked
away in the bundle of cloth was the most vital element
to her freedom: the prioress’s master key, normally
hung prominently on a hook in that woman’s private chamber.
Her hands found it without the need of sight; it was
heavy and ornate, thick brass polished to slickness.
It
had taken Serath nearly two months to find a key close
enough to it in style to risk making the switch. The
key to the wine cellar now hung in the prioress’s chamber.
One close look would reveal the deception, but Serath
was betting that the prioress was too distracted with
the visit from the bishop to worry much about that key
tonight.
She
found the first lock and fumbled with it, shoving the
key in place and jiggling it until she was able to turn
it. The lock clicked open. Serath removed it from the
gate and tossed it to the ground.
She
reached for the second lock.
A faint
glow of yellow light fell on the stones to her left.
She whirled around to see the unmistakable movement
of torchlight growing brighter from the open doorway
of the dormitory. She heard voices. They were saying
her name.
She
knew as soon as she turned back to the gate that she
was too late. She would not be able to open the remaining
two locks in time.
It
can’t be over this quickly, she thought, desperate.
It can’t.
Her
body was moving without her will, instinct alone saving
her, making her grab up her bundle and bolt from the
path, through the knotted undergrowth of the convent
garden, throwing the key aside to land in the dirt.
The
garden was large and varied; Serath had spent more time
here than anywhere else on the grounds, and so knew
which way would hold the most promise for hiding.
The
lights were increasing, the noises of women’s voices
growing louder. Serath heard her name being called,
exclamations that were almost too dim to make out.
The
far wall. She had to reach the far wall, with its thicket
of bushes and vines. A good portion of that corner of
the garden was skeletal and dying, and the prioress
had decided to let it go fallow for a season. It was
there that she should hide.
“Serath!
Serath Rune!”
So
close, so close.... She was running bent almost in two,
crashing through bare branches and exposed roots, and
surely they could hear her, surely they had seen her
by now, darting through the starlight—
“There!”
called someone, and Serath threw herself to the ground,
scratching her hands and face, barely feeling it. She
came up hard against the outer wall of stone; it knocked
the air from her, leaving her dazed.
They
were swarming everywhere now, calling out for her, talking
to each other. Even the other novices were joining in.
She
crawled to a sitting position, then leaned her head
back, taking in the height of the crumbling stone wall.
“Where
is she?”
It
was the prioress, very near. Serath closed her eyes
and covered her face with the hood of her cloak, trying
to control her breathing. She heard footsteps pause
in front of her, the crackling of a torch.
“She
cannot be far. The gate is still secured. Sister Damaris
ensured that right away.”
The
speaker used a calm, consolatory tone, perhaps not wishing
to witness the prioress’s infamous temper. Serath knew
it well.
“Wayward,”
the prioress was muttering, directly in front of Serath’s
hiding place. “Willful. Disobedient, wretched girl....”
She
couldn’t bear not to witness what looked to be the end
of her careful plans, so Serath opened her eyes, finding
the shadowed shapes of the two women in front of her.
Torchlight slipped past the tangle of the bushes, glancing
off the woven cloth of her cloak. At least she had that
much protecting her.
“We
shall find her,” the other nun said, facing away. “She
cannot go far.”
The
prioress was still muttering. Serath could picture the
scowl on her face, the deep furrows of displeasure worn
into her forehead beneath the wimple.
“I
am beginning to think she is not worth the coin her
grandfather sends,” the prioress said. “I am too old
to be chasing ungrateful, spoiled novices into the night.
Especially this night.”
Both
women paused, looking up to the sky, and Serath finally
gave in to the urge to do the same, staring past the
twists of stems and vines to see what they did.
A blood
moon, free of clouds now, full and round and deep red.
It hung low and sullen on the horizon, a orb of ominous
proportions, disfiguring the night.
She
felt the hair on the back of her neck rise, understanding
now why the night seemed so strange, why the air felt
so heavy in her lungs. The light around her was growing
redder by the minute. Sweet heavens, how had she not
seen it before? The end was closer than she had dreamed—she
would be trapped here in her final hours, after all—
The
prioress crossed herself. The other nun did the same.
“Hurry,”
said the prioress. “We must find this cursed girl and
get back inside. The sooner the better.”
The
other woman murmured agreement, and together they moved
away, taking the betraying light of the torch with them.
Serath
waited anyway, just to be certain they were gone. She
remained perfectly still, listening to the sounds of
the convent roused, voices calling her name in tones
that ranged from sleepy to irate—thirty seven women
in search of one. It seemed the bishop could not be
bothered for the hunt.
Slowly
she inched her way up from her position, keeping the
rough stones against her back.
The
wall was most dangerous here, farthest from the main
buildings, ill-tended and falling to rubble. She imagined
it would not be too difficult to scale; the danger would
be in the time it took her. The height of it was still
impressive. Eventually, she would be seen. Even though
the walls of the convent enclosed a significant amount
of land, once above the bushes, she would be open to
discovery by them all.
Serath
took a deep breath of the warm air, calming herself,
then turned and faced the stone.
She
had not climbed in a very long time. In fact, she had
not done much in a very long time, it seemed, except
meditate on her sins, pray at a cold stone altar, and
duck blows from her superiors as she scrubbed and cleaned
and implored forgiveness for faults she was not truly
sorry for.
She
had guessed correctly about the wall: the loose stones
made for easy hand holds, if precarious ones. She took
one step up, then another. The hood of her cloak fell
away but she had no means to fix it. She could not afford
to let go. She had to hurry.
The
bundle of cloth tied over one shoulder bumped against
her with each move, a heavy weight that made her balance
that much more uncertain. But she must not stop.
The
wall was so tall, taller than she had anticipated. It
had been built to repel raiders and pagans, and even
after climbing what seemed like an eternity she was
barely halfway up. The menacing moonlight washed in
her in red shadows, turning her fingers to the color
of rawness, the stones to dark crimson. Perspiration
made her grip tenuous.
She
should have removed her boots for this. How stupid not
to—she was having difficulty feeling for holds through
the heavy leather of them. Why hadn’t she thought of
that? Stupid, stupid—
Serath
heard a group of women off to her left, coming toward
her. Her breath grew shorter, almost panicked. She moved
more quickly, careless, and felt her foot slip on a
stone that broke free of the ancient mortar, rolling
and clattering down to the dirt.
Serath
froze.
“What
was that?” asked someone—Alva, new to the convent, younger
than Serath. Her voice was sharp and fearful.
“An
animal,” suggested someone else, in a voice even more
filled with fear.
“Or
Serath Rune,” said a nun tartly. “Keep moving.”
It
was finished, so very quickly. Her last hopes, her last
prayers unanswered, cut short by one betraying stone.
They would find her and keep her here until it was all
over. She would never see the sun again; her remaining
days and nights would be spent in this hard and unforgiving
place—why had she ever thought it would be any different....
Serath
closed her eyes against the wash of crimson moonlight,
paralyzed with despair, unable to move to save herself.
“Oh,
sister, what if it was a demon?” Alva’s panic was becoming
more apparent. “We should go to the chapel! Look at
the moon! God is warning us! This night is cursed!”
“God
will protect us,” retorted the nun, though some of the
tartness of before had faded, turned less certain. “Keep
searching, child.”
Serath
heard them begin to walk toward her again. When they
passed the birch marking the corner of the path, they
would find her.
She
would not die here, in this place she loathed.
Serath unclenched her hands and found the will to climb
again, as swiftly as possible, uncaring of the falling
stones now. It was too late for subtlety.
At
the new clatter of stones one of the novices let out
a shriek, prompting more from the others. But the nun
had more sense, Serath knew, and she couldn’t help but
look behind and below her as the woman came into sight.
“Serath
Rune! Get down from there!”
Serath
ignored this, climbing faster.
Others
had sounded the call of her discovery, but it might
not be too late—she was so close now, so close, she
could make it to the top and leap down if she had to—she
would take that chance, because now that they had found
her they would open the gate with the spare key and
run along the outer wall to stop her—
And
Serath reached the top of the wall and found this was
what was happening. The prioress and a core of followers
were already stalking toward her outside the convent
grounds, fluttering gowns and veils tinged dusky crimson.
If she didn’t jump right now they would have her, and
they would take her back inside and lock her up again,
and there would be no next time—they would keep her
locked away until the final gasp of this life, kept
in unending silence—
Serath
glanced behind her, at the women gathered near the base
of the wall amid the thicket, staring up at her. Most
of them were young, wide eyes and open mouths, pure
astonishment. Beyond them stretched the compound of
the convent, her prison for the past nine years.
And
on the other side of the wall, precious freedom: dark
woods glimmering with red-fire moonlight, beckoning
her.
She
might break her bones in the fall. Surely she would.
But they weren’t close enough yet to stop her, and perhaps
she could limp away to hide—
“Serath!
Climb down immediately!” The prioress was coming so
near, wrath and fury in every line of her.
Serath
placed one hand on the bundle still slung over her shoulder,
so that she would not lose it in her leap. A heated
wind came and pushed her cloak and skirts in front of
her, drenched red.
Someone
screamed, and the girls on the other side of the wall
shrieked again, pointing up into the sky.
Slowly,
reluctantly, Serath looked up, past the blood moon,
and saw the stars begin to fall around her, streaks
of silver and gold against the indigo night, raining
down around them. It was the bishop’s shower of fire,
a true portent, unfolding right now in dizzying threads
of beauty shot across the sky.
Serath
felt the last of her courage desert her. She stood still
on top of the wall, caught in the terrible splendor
of the moment, watching the heavens fall to earth.
From
the woods erupted noise and movement where there should
be none, a commotion of thick mass, spilling out into
the clearing by the wall. The turmoil became riders,
many of them, men wrapped in metal and weapons, scarlet
and stars glittering off them—the demons Alva predicted
made awfully, completely real.
The
prioress and her group stopped, clustered in a tight
knot, gaping at the riders.
Moonlight
revealed the crest on the shield of the leader: a red
dragon writhing against black.
“Lord
save us, it’s the devil himself,” gasped one of the
nuns.
Serath
gazed down at the apparition before her, surrounded
by the falling sky, feeling strangely calm at this,
what would be the end of everything after all.
The
devil broke away from his group, taking his crimson
steed up to the base of the wall.
“Serath
Rune,” said the devil, looking up at her, his face alternately
masked and then lit by the blood light and the falling
stars.
She
heard the deep command in his voice, felt her body move
in response. She sat down on the top of the wall, staring
at him, and the unnatural breeze came again and played
with her hair, loose and blacker than the night, bringing
it up to dance around her face.
“Come,”
said the devil to her, and her feet obeyed him, beginning
to descend the wall, and then her hands, and the climb
was almost easy now, effortless. Simple.
She
made it down in what seemed like no time at all, her
feet touching the soft earth again, and then she turned
to face him.
The
devil towered above her on his demon steed, and the
blood moon was his, and the streaking stars outlined
him to show her only shape and form: huge and solid,
utterly black but for the gleam of red on his shoulders
and hair.
“Come,”
said the devil again, and he leaned down from his saddle
to reach out one hand to her.
“She
is cursed,” whispered one of the women loudly.
There
was nothing else to do. With all the nuns watching,
still as death, Serath Rune accepted the devil’s invitation
and took his hand, allowing herself to be pulled up
into his saddle in front of him.
The
world below her now seemed so small, more distant even
than it had from the top of the convent wall. The nuns
of Saint Basilla’s dwindled to a shrunken terror, each
face revealed to her in pale ovals of crimson.
The
devil placed his arm around her waist, securing her
against him. Serath took the bundle of cloth from her
shoulder and moved it to her lap, holding it with both
hands.
And
he wheeled the demon horse around in the clearing, carrying
her to his dark group and then beyond it, out into the
blooded woods, the sky still hailing silver and gold
around them.
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Excerpted from A Kiss at Midnight
by Shana Abé. Copyright © 2000 by Shana Abé. Excerpted
by permission of Bantam Books, a division of Random
House, Inc. All rights reserved. No part of this excerpt
may be reproduced or reprinted without permission in
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